Copyright 1999 by Lin LaTrajet Ready Writer Press |
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Jesus is Speaking |
Acknowledgment |
This book as well as others written by Lin LaTrajet are dedicated to the work of the One who gave them, The Holy Spirit of Jesus Christ. God gave me the gift of writing. In 1998 His Spirit began impressing upon me daily that one day I would be using that gift to write for Him. I could not imagine it at the time but I know His words are always truth and bear fruit. Repeatedly, He took me to Psalm 45:1, using it to show me the truth of my heart towards Him and how He would use that to glorify Himself. Truly my heart is overflowing with good matters regarding Him who is my King, my Lord, my God, my redeemer and my Savior. He is as real to me as any person! My tongue and my computer are always ready to share His beautiful truths. |
"Oh, that my words were now written! Oh, that they were printed in a book!" Job 19:23 |
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The cares and necessities of the world had numbed me mentally, emotionally and physically. It seemed my life was being consumed, going up like smoke before my eyes, requiring all of my energies to simply survive, to produce the bare necessities to exist in this chaotic world. There were days when I had trouble even understanding my purpose for existing. Is this what life is all about: constant toiling and striving to make ends meet that persistently refused to even come close? I am a visual person; that's the kind of creative mind God has given me. Even words are pictures to me. Often now it seemed that my life's picture was one of a juggler who was adept with three balls constantly being thrown more and being expected to keep them all moving in perfect motion, never missing a beat, never dropping a ball. That kind of juggling is very high stress and daily I prayed for the performance to end so I could relax a bit from the strain of it. No more reassuring or comforting was the even clearer picture of me surrounded by a circle of small fires. There I was in the center supplied with a bucket of water and a small cup, running in endless circles, pouring a cupful of water on each fire ineffectively. By the time I made it around the circle, every pile of fire had increased in size; yet, I kept going not knowing what else to do. |
My life had never been this chaotic. I'd had wonderful jobs in the past in Seattle and New York City when I was living for myself with never a thought about God, and my life had seemed to flow smoothly. Since turning my life over to the Lord Jesus Christ, everything seemed to be going the reverse of what I thought it should be. I knew He was rooting out, tearing down and plowing my life to clear the soil of my soul for His planting. God is the original gardener. I am a gardener too and I understood that He, like I, would never plant seeds in a field overrun with briars. Still, there were times it seemed that all continuity and comfort was being removed and chaos reigned. Sometimes in frustration and hopelessness that reached new levels of an anger I had never experienced, I informed Him that I could do a better job by myself and even dared to ask Him, who is life, to get out of mine and let me handle it myself! Thankfully, He is merciful and never took me seriously. |
For the past year, I had been struggling to survive on a job that provided hundreds of dollars a month less than I needed just for necessities. Faithful friends who were walking similar paths held me in constant prayer for His providing to appear. We were all in similar circumstances, perched precariously in the same leaky boat on the overflowing waters of life, riding the wave tops of unshakable faith, knowing without doubt that He did have a perfect plan for each of us and that His help would arrive, only to be tossed down into the next drenching wave of weariness and despair of every seeing it actually appear. We supported each other in prayer because that was all we had to share. We laughed and cried and hoped and prayed our way though impossible situations in all of our lives, four friends bound together as unbreakable as a threefold cord, linked for His purposes in ways we have only now begun to understand. What I needed most was more income but it seemed that every door was closed. Sometimes they were more than just closed, they were cemented over in a wall too high to go over which stretched unending in both directions too far to ever go around. Daily I saw His providing of my bare necessities and sometimes chided Him for not throwing in a little excess. Truly, He sustained us all along our paths strewn with disasters and calamities. He was doing great works in each of our lives, but we wanted instant answers and complete eradication of all that troubled and hindered us. |
For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord." |
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God's ways thankfully are not our ways. He knows what He is about; we knew that and no matter how dark the days or how overflowing the floods of life, we had faith and hope to see His goodness and perfection arrive in time to remove us from our leaky boats before it was too late. He always does! Wondrous miracles and miraculous providing in ways we would never have dreamed to even ask for appeared always in a nick of time, time and time again. We wanted to win the lottery to completely remove in an instant all of our financial woes. What He wanted was to demonstrate His perfect care in every situation. He wanted us to learn to abslutely and completely put all our hope and trust in Him only. It had been an awesome year of beautiful promises that we expected fulfillment of at any moment. What we saw instead was His perfectness gently unfolding like the fresh beauty and sweetness of a flower, petal by petal. He is an instant God, but not when moment-by-moment unfolding of His purpose serves Him better. |
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I am merely a simple sheep of His pasture who delights to do His will by sharing what He gives me. That is my work for Him and my joy. His work is to use these writings to touch hearts in powerful ways as only His Holy Spirit can. My prayer is that what He has illuminated and spoken in all my writings will bless the hearts and change the lives of those who read them. |
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